day two.
“Pray about what you desperately want from God.”
today’s topic to pray on isn’t as easy as it sounds. what is it that i desperately want from God? one thing i’ve always tried to do was not constantly ask for things from God. it’s not that i have a problem asking the Lord for things, but at what point do we have to ask enough things of him before he goes, “alright already!” i mean, i don’t think God will ever deny us or get angry with us for asking for things, but there should be a line where the praise and worship heavily outweighs the asking of things. and looking more deeply into the question, it’s what do you desperately - as in, having an urgent need/want - from God. this is where the question for a bit more serious for me.
one of the things on the top of my list would be for the strength of my mother to keep being the strong woman she is. she’s done a really amazing job being a single mother to three boys since we were all just becoming teenagers, and it certainly hasn’t been easy at all for her. she’s sacrificed much more than i ever have for myself and my two brothers. i really do owe this woman my life. but lately it just seems as though she’s more stressed out than usual. she hasn’t been noticibly upset or anything like that, but you can just tell she’s been getting stressed out. i’d love to see her get less stressed out and happier with her life. that’d make me seriously such a happy camper.
i’d also pray for the decision of someone up at my college, who i’m relying on to help me do a major switch in my college studies. i haven’t heard anything from them yet, but this decision can seriously impact the rest of my life, that’s why it makes me a little on the edge.
my girlfriend, also, has been dealing with some anxiety and stress issues. it can be hard sometimes, since i don’t always know what to say when she’s upset and needs me. i feel like i can really do is be there for her and listen to her when she talks. but when it gets quiet and i feel like she’s expecting me to say something, sometimes i’m left speechless. not because i don’t care - simply because i don’t know what to say. not that i can really say anything to make everything okay anyway.
so that’s what i’ll be praying for all in the name of Jesus tonight.
