day thirteen.
What is primarily on your heart today?
the excitement of julia’s graduation is definitely one of the top things on my heart lately. i’m so excited for her, and so proud that she’s been able to overcome so many struggles to get where she is at right now. friday is her graduation, which i’m really excited to be able to attend! got the day off work to celebrate with her and her family!
the incident from work yesterday has also been plaguing my thoughts since it happened. when people started coming into my job and threatening me, that’s when i have to draw the line. and it all started off with me trying my best to help the guy out! i think that’s why it has been bothering me since last night. i was doing my job and just helping him out, and all of a sudden he started lashing out ready to throw punches and go after all of us. so messed up.
i’m also super excited for some of the awesome things going on this summer. julia, nickyb, and i have finally got our tickets to scream the prayer 2009, which is going to be an awesome show. some awesome parties and trips we’re taking is also something to look forward to.
my worries about the upcoming school semester has also been bothering me a little bit lately, but not as much as i know they will be in a few months, when school actually gets a little closer.
Share with God what you’ve been thinking. Does this make you uncomfortable?
the positive things in my life - like julia’s graduation and the great things going on this summer - i have no problem at all sharing with God - not the least bit of hesitation. but the more serious things, like the confrontation at work and the upcoming school semester, do bother me when bringing up to God, because sometimes it feels as if i’m showing worry or concern that God isn’t going to help me. deep down, i know that Jesus is going to help me through the struggles i’m currently facing; i know He will be there looking over my shoulder when classes start and if that guy ever comes back into my job. but it makes me wonder if it offends God when we do worry about these things. because God tells us:
“Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go.” - Joshua 1:9
we are not to be afraid. we are not to be discouraged because God is always with us! so when we are worrisome that God isn’t going to be there for us… does He get offended or upset with us? it’s for this reason alone that sometimes i feel like i’m hesitant to bring my worries before God - out of fear of offending. but in the end, i always do end up bringing them to Him, because i know that He wants to help us through our struggles, and wants us to see His presence during those times.
